I Often Wonder About Myself...

Monday, November 28


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…Something On The Radio…



Ok, let’s about Sex Ed for a minutes, shall we? I’m listening to the radio, and ya know how they are always giving little clips for the following morning shows? Well, they wanted to know if our children should be taught Sex Ed more in school or at home by the parents.

Here’s Mel’s theory…

If you let the school do the dirty work, the potential of it all going to hell in a hand bag could be catastrophic. Think about it for a second. Kids these days are having sex at earlier and earlier ages. When I was in high school, I remember 2 couples that got expelled for having sex AT SCHOOL during school hours. My 12 year old sister comes home from her second week of 6th grade and there had been 6 or so suspensions – expulsions for various reasons (including sexual B.S)

Now if we as parents allow the school system to fully educate our youth on sex, they are going to be more prone to “trying it all out” after class. However, if we as parents decide to educate them ourselves, then the ever so famous; “Ewww! Mom, that’s sick” attitude is more likely to emerge.

Maybe I am wrong here, but I see it as it going either way. If it’s done in school, then the kids could get shy about it all and back down. But that is just one batch of kids. At home I feel they would be more likely to want to keep it to themselves and fester on it for a while. Coming from parents can be an embarrassing yet enlightening thing. It all depends on your relationship with your child and trying to find the right time to try and have *the talk*. Personally I don’t think there ever is a *right time*, but that’s just my opinion, I could be wrong.

I don’t know. I just think that the schools are taking over too much of *our parental roles*. Yet, at the same time, we as parents are becoming lazier on these issues and allowing the schools to take over. What to do, what to do?

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Saturday, November 26


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EMINEM LYRICS


"When I'm Gone"


Yeah...It's my life...
My own words I guess...

[Verse 1]
Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'em
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you, despite you?
What happens when you become the main source of a pain?
"Daddy look what I made", Dad's gotta go catch a plane"
Daddy where's Mommy? I can't find Mommy where is she?"
I don't know go play Hailie, baby, your Daddy's busy
Daddy's writing this song, this song ain't gonna write itself
I'll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by yourself
Then turn right around on that song and tell her you love her
And put hands on her mother, who's a spitting image of her
That's Slim Shady, yeah baby, Slim Shady's crazy
Shady made me, but tonight Shady's rocka-by-baby...

[Chorus]
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

[Verse 2]
I keep having this dream, I'm pushin' Hailie on the swing
She keeps screaming, she don't want me to sing
"You're making Mommy cry, why? Why is Mommy crying?"
Baby, Daddy ain't leaving no more, "Daddy you're lying
"You always say that, you always say this is the last time
"But you ain't leaving no more, Daddy you're mine"
She's piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it
"Daddy please, Daddy don't leave, Daddy - no stop it!"
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket
It's got a picture, "this'll keep you safe Daddy, take it withcha'"
I look up, it's just me standing in the mirror
These fuckin' walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear 'em
They're saying "You've got one more chance to do right" - and it's tonight.
Now go out there and show that you love 'em before it's too late
And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door
It's turns to a stage, they're gone, and this spotlight is on
And I'm singing...

[Chorus]
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

[Verse 3]
Sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat
The curtain closes, they're throwing roses at my feet
I take a bow and thank you all for coming out
They're screaming so loud, I take one last look at the crowd
I glance down, I don't believe what I'm seeing
"Daddy it's me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleeding,"
But baby we're in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden?
"I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren't leavin'
"You lied to me Dad, and now you make Mommy sad"
And I bought you this coin, it says 'Number One Dad'
"That's all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin
"I get the point - fine, me and Mommy are gone"
But baby wait, "it's too late Dad, you made the choice
"Now go up there and show 'em that you love 'em more than us"
That's what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep.. screamin' your name
It's no wonder you can't go to sleep, just take another pill
Yeah, I bet you you will. You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real
I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see
How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me
I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it
Put it to my brain and scream "die Shady" and pop it
The sky darkens, my life flashes, the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes
That's when I wake up, alarm clock's ringin', there's birds singin'
It's Spring and Hailie's outside swinging, I walk right up to Kim and kiss her
Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister.
Almost as if to say..

[Chorus/Outro]
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

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Tuesday, November 22


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...and so the story goes...

A little like this.

Friday:
I woke up VERY yucky and went to one of the several ERs in the greater Orlando area. I must have looked like ass because I hobbled in and next thing I know a nurse throws me in a wheel chair and takes me straight back to the ER. So I am given meds and fluids while I wait for my chest X-Rays. After that the doctor decides to keep me overnight and get a CT of my belly because of the pain I had been having. Later that night I get taken in for the CT. I heard nothing until...

Saturday Afternoon:
The doc comes in and tells me that they found free fluid around my uterus. What uterus? I had a hysterectomy 2 flippin years ago. He's all like "I know, but that's what the radiologist said he saw". So because he doesn't know where this fluid is coming from or even what kind of "fluid" it is, he wants a ultrasound done. Now we move on to...

Sunday Late Afternoon:
"Your labs are a little off so you are going to stay until tomorrow and you need to take these horse pills" The horse pills are the ever so popular potassium pills I get whenever I am sick. For some reason my potassium falls every time I get sick and end up in the hospital. Later that day my labs are getting better...YAY! That night around 8 or so I am sent down to ultrasound. Now anyone who has ever had one of these done knows damn well that if you ask them to tell you whats what you will hear something like "I am not a doctor so I can't tell you anything because if I give you the wrong information I could get into big trouble". So I save the woman the trouble and asked her to tell me if she could see the fluids and what not. Well a minute or so into this shin-dig, I look at the monitor and gasped in horror! "Is that my ovary?" "Yeah". Ho;y Shit Balls Batman! The thing was GINORMOUS!

Monday Late Morning:
"Well, you have a hemorrhagic ovarian cyst"? What? Yeah, so I get sent home. WTF? Why didn't they take it out. I have no way to pass this normally, remember no uterus here dudes.

So yeah, I went to the hospital today and got a copy of all my radiology crap that they did over the past few days, including the written reports. At the end of the ultrasound report it says something like, the mistaken uterus was the patient's ovary, it is very enlarged and shifted to the midline of the pelvic region. Oh yeah, did I mention this thing is bleeding?

Then on the CT report, I read that I have a piece of lose floating bone in one of my vetibral spaces. And I am so messed up it's not even funny. I am crooked! My whole body is whacked out of alignment and I am tilting, that is why I am in so much pain. So if you don't hear from me for a few days it is because I am trying to find answers and talking to doctors about what to do about it all.

Any suggestions? Please?

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Monday, November 21


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Hospitals SUCK!!!!

Sorry about my week long gap.

I have been in the hospital because I have a giant hemorrhagic cyst on one of my ovaries. I have no clue what's going on and I am dazed and desufnoc!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So yea, I will keep you posted and all, but I need to find out first, and seeing as how my docs are being back-ass-wards I wouldn't hold my beath if I were you. I sure as hell am not.

Tah!

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Monday, November 14


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Kids Worry Too

One thing that parents will never understand is that there lives have a significant impact on their children. Parents, when your children are late coming home, or you are unable to track them down, don't you freak out and start to think the worst after a while? Well allow me to let you in on a little secret we kids have been hiding from you. WE DO THE SAME FU#*%NG THING!!!!

Yeah, kids worry about their moms and dads all the time. Without our parents we would have less than what we need and want. Children woun't give you the saticfaction of knowing differently but, we hold a lot of what our parents say up high. We do care what you think and say, to an extent, but we do care. You are our parents for crying out loud.

My mommy and I care VERY close. We know more about eachother than we care to ever know in a lietime. My mom is my best friend, the one person I know I can talk to and she will listen and give me her opinion. Now I may not like her opinion and that's when I will tell her where to go, but that is the beauty of our relationship.

Anyrate! When I can't get ahold of mom, I freak, I call hospitals and police stations. I call her friends, well he 1 friend whom happens to also be my friend. And she knows I worry like that. So why the hell does she do things to piss me off? Yesterday she was drinking and called up our mutual friend and told her how piss ass drunk she was and she needed to go to sleep. Well, K is all like, well ok I will call you in a little bit to see how you are. After that she couldn't get her on the phone. She calls me and tells me what had happened and all I can think of is the fact that mom had some Xanax left and if she was that drunk and took them then she is fucked.

So me and K both redialed mom's number for over an hour and she never answered the phone. So K got in the car and went over there. Mom was passed out on the floor. And now she is fine. But this wouldn't have happened if the guys she was dating wasn't such a liar. This guy is a real catch let me tell you. So yeah, he shows up at moms last night and mom told me that she would call me is she could later. I was all like oh hells no! So I called her a million times and she took the phone off the hook just to spite me and K. Now she is annoied at the very fact that we a shit about her.

It will be all good in about a week or so. Or until I kick this guy in the balls and sick my uncles on his dumb ass!

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Sunday, November 13


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Blah, Blah, Blah

So I have come to the realization that life is one rough journey. Or card game if you really want to go through that one all over again. Mom meets this guy and he is really nice. He has a great sense of humor and really is an easy going guy. With that said, over the past 3 months or so we have been waiting for the other shoe to drop. It did. He is a liar! A big fat hairy liar! He told mom that he had never been married and doesn’t have any kids.

To make a long ass story short… He has been married, and still is and he has a 3 year old with the woman. Mom got suspicious when he *found out he had a son* and did a background check on him. He was married to the baby’s momma and owns a house with her and they have their mail sent to the same damn PO Box and everything. So he is so in the dog house it isn’t even funny. Mom told him he is no longer welcomed at her house and there is nothing there for him and to go the hell away. Go Momma Doo!!!!

On to bigger and better things.

I am so tired! I have not been sleeping well and my migraines are back and mad as hell. I really don’t have a whole lot to say right now. I am not in one of my analytical moods today so there will not be any funny or long rants here. But I will leave you with this:

A teacher asked her class,
"What do you want out of life?"
A little girl in the back row raised her hand and said,
"All I want out of life is four little animals."
The teacher asked,
"Really and what four little animals would that be sugar?"
The little girl said,
"A mink on my back! , a jaguar in the garage, a tiger in the bed and of course, I'll need a jackass to pay for all of it." The teacher fainted.

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Friday, November 11


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Told You So

I changed my template! Told ya I was going to do something with it. :-) Any-rate. I did my nails last night and they came out really good. I got a new type of fake nails and they are kinda thin and clearish. So after I filed them down and stuff they looked so real I didn't paint them, I just used a clear top coat.

Shit! Gotta Go....

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Thursday, November 10


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The Great Resolve...

...and no I am not talking about carpet cleaner. The *Resolve* being that I have *discarded* a morals, values, and friendship from the hand I was dealt a few days ago. If you didn't get that then you need to scroll through my posts and read Trying Times. I can't promise you will come out with any understanding what-so-ever, but it's worth a shot if you are interested.

Today is a somewhat decent day for me. Not a whole lot of drama and I am not stressin' over as much as I had been. My one friend is doing ok, one of the 2 family/friends that went into surgery is fine and the other is still in... so that is relieving. Other than that I have a pounding headach from my sinuses and I just want to take a nap, but I can't. I know as soon as I fall asleep or get comfy Alicia is going to wake up or it will be time to go and get Branden from school.

For once in my life I am at a loss for conversation right now. I think it is just my headache or something. I guess for now I will go and play with my blog colors or something. Maybe even change my template! I haven't changed this template since I got it in Sept. of 2001! I have messed with the colors but it's the same old temp. that blogger DC'ed.

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Wednesday, November 9


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:CAUTION:
This post contains strong language and is not intended for a young audience. Parental Discretion is advised.


...Dennis Leary...

*...Most people think like sucks, and then you die. I disagree, I think life sucks, then ya get cancer, then you go into chemo therapy, you lose loose all your hair feel bad about yourself. Then all of a sudden the cancer goes into remission, you come out; you look good, you feel good, you're goin' great, then all of a sudden you have a stroke, you can't move your right side. And one day you step off the curb on 68th by Lincoln Centre and B A N G you get hit by a bus, and then maybe... you die.*

Gotta love the man. He is so morbid and out spoken! I love it! Yeah, so I have had an *off* day. A close friend of mine is going into surgery tomorrow and she is a little *off* about it all. Plus I would love to be there for her but her whole (well most) of her family hates my every living cell. A grand feeling let me tell you.

Now on to my mother. I am going to feel really fucking bad if something has happened to her but here we go. She flew up to PA to drive back down with her new man. That's fine, I don't care. While she was up there she went to go see my Grandma who she hasn't seen since we left NY in 1991. I talked to her on Sunday when she got to Grandma's and I've heard nothing since. She knows how I am! If she is 3 hours late home from work I start calling the hospital and checking the FHP website. So her not calling because she thinks I'll be hounding her man is far beyond fucked up! Yeah, that's right, she is afraid to call me from his cell because I have caller ID on mine and when she calls me then I will have his number so I can hunt her down from now on. Dumbass! *67!!!! I told her about it.

So that is like my huge ass dilemma right now. I just worry about her all the time. No one else worries about her like they should, so I have to do it. It gets on her nerves sometimes, this I know and understand, but come on. So now she is God knows where, doing God knows what and here I am worrying about her and she could give 2 shits and a fuck.

Then there is the management (or lack there of) at APC. God they are so inconsiderate and fucking S T U P I D! These retards couldn't write a schedule to wipe their asses! Oh and don't get me started on my brother-in-law.

Wow. That turned into more of a heated blog than I intended on. I will leave you with a lil' Ludacris...

...*Yea-uh, here we go here we go here we go
Talk about that
Word of Mouf baby!!
Yeuh, yeuh yeuh yeuh yeuh!
Here we go, here we go
Ludacris, 4-Ize, what you want now now now now
[Ludacris]
Check it
You see I live a life filled with chicken and malt liquor
And women that are real life scratch'n'sniff stickers
I shoot videos and get knobs slobbed in trailers
Then hit stage and break a leg like Lawrence Taylor
You pricks is all talk, and it's bad for ya health
See I ain't gotta say SHIT!
Money speaks for itself
With all models I make I'm Great like five Lakes
You got rims on ya truck? Man I got rims in my skates!
You rollin on dubs, I roll right in da clubs
Dirtiest home with more rings than ya tub
You think it's all practical jokes and big bloopers
But I smack bitches with no titties that work at Hooters
Just get a couple of girls that shakin they thangs
Then I, put 'em on camera and cut two frames
With some gasoline drawers I'll be goin to hell
Ludacris, fuck like a nigga fresh out of jail!
I got junkyard dawgs, I'm rowdier than Rod Piper
And my baby's assed out, cause I rub my cars with her diapers
So you can pray for now if you sinned in the past
"Word of Mouf" time to wipe that silly grin off yo' ass
[4-Ize]
These rap cats is soft like R&B singers
It's 4-Ize, I've worked for wings and chicken fingers
I reps mo' parts so Chi-Town could get seen
I'm a Dirty Bird now but I keep shit clean
I rip mean face niggaz one by one
Or two by two, I'll take 'em however they come
Instead of a gun, I'll pull out a stick from woodworkin
The black Hacksaw Jim Duggin stay lurkin
Creepin, I'm in the shadows, the nightshade
You want the tail in the back or, a light fade?
Cause Tony Scissorhands is the barber, the butcher
I kill ya smoke a blunt and forget where I put ya
I'm Soopafly like Snuka, I smack hoes
The black rose with the dozen attack flows
I rock Shaq's clothes when I alter beast
Power up, get big, it's Disturbin' Tha Peace*


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Monday, November 7


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...Trying time...

There comes a time in everyone's life when they have to make sacrifices. We all know they are necessary in life, they must be done. But what happens if you don't want to? What if you just leave it alone and hope it all works out? Like somehow, fait will find a place for all of the misplaced shit you accumulate during your life.

All the junk you hold onto knowing you can easily get rid of it all and call it a day will somehow vanish to make it easier on you. All the negative energy finds a place to go. All of the people who have hurt you magically disappear from your life just as easily as they came in. Would that be better?

No. When it comes down to it, you are the one playing the hand you have been dealt. It is time for you to decide if you want to stick it out. Fold or not, bluff or give. The game master is out there dealing you a hand that only you are able to play with. You need to play it out until the game is over.

Anyone who has played a good game of Rummy or Poker will know it isn't an easy thing to do. One wrong move and you are screwed. Screwed hard at that, with the distinct possibility of needing to restart. This is how I am looking at life now. A game, a card game. The dealer knows what you are getting in this game and he wants to see how you are going to play it out. Instead of suits and face cards, you have money, friends, enemies, places, adventures, love, and so much more. At any given moment your new hand contains all new cards. It is virtually impossible for even the best of card counters to memorize all these cards due to the fact that they are always changing and you never know when the game master is going to invent a whole new deck.

I know that was a lot of blabbering to try and keep up with, but bare with me, I am going through a lot right now.

I'll let you in on my current hand, I have one friend, a little love... ok, a lot, education, family, values, family-values, integrity and morals. I have, equally, a lot to gain and lose. I don't wanna be the one just to love and lose. I don't want to decide the fait of a life long friendship, I really don't want to think about where my morals and values are conflicting in this hand, and I am having the hardest time trying to figure out how the f*&k I am going to get my ass back in school.

I miss school! Who would have thought I would ever utter those very words? LOL. The only thing I know right now is that I am a mom and I have to figure out how to get my daughter to stop biting her brother. I spent a good portion of my day singing and for those of you who know me, that has always been my comfort, my release, my way out and to figure out what's up and down. But it didn't work this time. When I turned off the music the answer wasn't there, I didn't get my proverbial smack in the face or wake up call. Have I reached that point where nothing will work now and my game master is seeing through the bluffs and possible cheats?

To keep identities secret I will not go too deep into it, but I have been betrayed. I have been a puppet on a string for a while and I don't know what to do. The two people I have always depended on are no longer there and all my back ups have vanished. My mom is too busy with her new man and my best friend has more important things on her plate right now. After high school I kept a few friend. We were so close and told each other everything. But now I am alone. I have no one and I really hate having to meet new people. I don't know how anymore not to mention the fact that I wouldn't know where to start. It's just too complicated these days. This isn't 3rd grade when you walk up to someone and this happened
*Hi, my name is Melissa*
*Hi, I'm Lucy*
*Cool. Wanna be friends?*
*Sure.*
And the rest was history, you now had a friend for however long you wanted to keep them around.

I don't know anymore. Over the past year my whole life has been turned upside down and thrown into a tornado to land God knows where. With that, I am gonna go. I have babbled about nothing for way too long.

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Ryan Cabrera "Walking On Water"

Ryan Cabrera "Walking On Water"

Look at you now
Holdin' on by yourself
Baby don't doubt
You're walkin' on water
The light in your eyes
Flows from the inside
Beauty runs out
You're walking on water

You're everything you need
You're anything you want to be
And everything you are
Is here right now

The sun'll fall down
The shadows come out
Don't fear the clouds
You're walking on water

You're everything you need
You're anything you want to be
And everything you are
Is here right now

Life is a dream
Whatever you want it to be
Don't let it slip away
When love is here

You can call
Any time at all
Or if you need someone
To cushion your fall
You can lay me down

You're everything you need
You're anything you want to be
And everything you are
Is here right now

Life is a dream
Whatever you want it to be
Don't let it slip away
When love is here
So lay me down

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Musical Posts

New Favorite Songs:


Ryan Cabrera "Fall Baby Fall"

If you just have faith
To let me be the man that I am
I'll always run back
To show you what words never can
I don't want to be the one just to love then lose

Let 'em fall baby fall
Just like the rain washes it all
If the tears will help you to heal
All that is real
All that is wrong
Let 'em fall baby fall

If you'll trust that I'm, gonna stay true even when I'm gone
You don't have to worry
'Cause i'll always be the man, that you want
And I don't want to be the one just to love then lose

Let 'em fall baby fall
Just like the rain washes it all
If the tears will help you to heal
All that is real
All that is wrong

As your world spins around
Feet never touch the ground
Always hurting inside
Hiding behind the sun
Waiting still for the love
But it all seems so right

You know what you need to do
And the tears will help to heal your heart
By all means let 'em fall
Let 'em fall
Just let 'em fall

Fall baby fall
Just like the rain washes it all
If the tears will help you to heal
All that is real
All that is wrong

Let 'em fall baby fall
Just like the rain washes it all
If the tears will help you to heal
All that is real
All that is wrong
Let 'em fall baby fall

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Inside My Mind: Caution! Flying Objects!

Ever watch those time-laps things in school? Like in science when we learned about photosynthesis and all that crap we had to watch videos of growing plants and the plant went from a seed to a 150 year old oak tree in 2 minutes… Well, sometimes I feel like bits and pieces of my life is being recorded and played back over some kind of time-laps like that. It’s like you feel like everything is dragging on and on and on but then the next minute you turn around and 2 years are gone! Seriously! Where does the time go?

*Watching time go right out the window* ~ Linkin Park

Sorry, musical moment. Anyways! My day got off to a nicely messed up start! I can think of about 5 better words for that but I don’t know the age range of my non-existent readers! But somehow it ended a little nicer. Branden thru his nightly fit, Alicia turned into an angel around 7:30 thinking she would get to stay up later than Branden, and Josh crashed out on the couch watching football highlights with hid daddy. Awwww, gag me! Tried to wake him up but I think I am going to leave him there. Maybe I will fall asleep all sprawled out and comfy. That is if I can fall asleep…

So I have just spent forever and a flippin day on Themeworld.com trying to find a good new theme for my PC. Oh the joy! So I did find one and I am cool with it. It is late, I am tired, and I need to be up in a little bit to start the week and the school day routine all over again. Ah, the joys of parenthood. With any luck I will feel better tomorrow morning when I wake up. I have had a sore throat and sinus crap for 3 days now. Yuckie!

Well, I am out for now!
Ciao!!

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Saturday, November 5


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Two bored casino dealers are waiting at the crap table.
A very attractive blonde woman from Mississippi arrived and bet
twenty thousand dollars ($20,000) on a single roll of the dice. She said,
"I hope y'all don't mind, but I feel much luckier when I'm
completely nude." With that, she stripped from the neck down, rolled
the dice and yelled, "Come on, baby, Mama needs new clothes!" As the
dice came to a stop she jumped up and down and squealed...
YES! YES! I WON, I WON!"

She hugged each of the dealers and then picked up her winnings and
her clothes and quickly departed. The dealers stared at each other dumfounded.
Finally, one of them asked,
"What did she roll?"
The other answered, "I don't know - I thought you were watching."


Moral - Not all Mississipians are stupid and not all blondes are
dumb,
but all men are men.

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