I Often Wonder About Myself...
Sunday, September 30
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I had a much better day today. Branden seems to be feeling better but he is still bitchy. I got mad at mom today for sleeping over at her boy-toy's place lastnight. How lame is that?!?!?!?! Any normal kid would be happy that their parental unit was out having fun, but no, not me. This is why *I Often Wonder About Myself*. I was just in a really bad mood when she called and told me she was still out on Harbor Island at 11:30 am. Josh was such a sweetie, Branden slept for an hour before he woke up and I had already gone to bed (3am) when he started to cry. *he'll go back to sleep* danced around my head for a few minutes before Josh went into his room and got him out. I was all like *ROCK ON* So at like 6am when I turned over into a cold spot on the mattress *not cool* I got out of bed and found my boyz asleep on the living room floor infront of the TV. I had to laugh. I went back to bed and slept until 9. NOT LONG ENOUGH!!!!!!! I had a rather eventful day after that but Josh didn't want to get off the florr and when he did it was to the couch which was worse. YAY I talked to Annie today. Five days Annie, and I'm counting with you! :) I remember counting the days when Josh would come see me when we lived far apart. That was brutal man! Well I am not in a hyper mood ~which suck the big one~ I have a question... How big exactly is *the big one*? And what is it? Or do I not want to know? Probably not. Oh well better go try to sleep.
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~M~
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Saturday, September 29
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Ok. Today won't be as goofy as normal. I had a big slap in the face. Everyone knows that I stay home with my son 24/7, well. I know that my job is more important than any, but I never took it to heart until today. Our son has been to the doctor, had shots, and even surgery when he was 6 weeks. The only thing is I was NEVER alone! Today Branden didn't feel good, but we didn't worry too much. Josh went to work and mom was on her way to a date. I took the babies temp and it was 103! I freaked out and (by myself) walked him to the urgent care center up the road. I had to hold him through thermometers, blood tests, and some other unsettling procedures. I had no one there and I think it was a good thing. I spent 2 hours holding my son tighter than I ever had. I was scared out of my mind when I found out that within 15 minutes his temp went up to over 104. I'm not going to type too long because I want to continue holding my son as tight as I can, I want to nurse his double otitis (ear-infection in both ears) and make him feel all better. He is my little boy and I can't imagine being a mom with out Josh or the help of my mom. So to Joshua and Veronica... I love you and I am really glad you are here to help me through the tough stuff. I am so glad our baby is ok. I love you all and hope you all are well.
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~M~
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Friday, September 28
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I just got back from a nice long trip to the leasing office. I talk to "my Chaz" and we exchanged dating stories and love stuff. I love him so much!!! He is too funny. He told me about a girlfriend he has that has like no friends and I know who she is. I've seen her up there a few times. She seems nice and I hope to become friends with her. Maybe we can all go out one night. Val is coming next weekend and we are suposed to go to a club:) YAY! I never been to a club before! Maybe we'll make "My Chaz" go show us where the good ones are. Well I better go for now and find some other boring task to accomplish
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~M~
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7:14 PM
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Things have returned to normal... I am alone with the kids! YAY!!! Anyways, we had so much fun the past two days. I got to see my man and spend time with the family. I took the dogs out to run and then the humans went to the park. Branden laughed harder than he ever has when I put him in the swing! He is too cute! I got to clean the apartment without interuptions. I think that is a good this which indicates that I am STRANGE! We all have to be sad for a minute:( Mom is sick. She had to stay home today which is bad because she was suposed to meet her new boy-toy. FEEL BETTER MOM! What else did I do? I got to sleep in yesterday and today. Branden was too tired to get up early so he slept till 11 both days. Today I had to wake him up. The park wore him out. That just means we'll be going a lot more often. Well have to go talk to Annie... YAY!!!!
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~M~
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Wednesday, September 26
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YAY... A day off! Not mine but hey at least I have some one to keep me company. I won't write much today or tomorrw. So I will leave you with this... "Life's a bitch and then you die, so F^&* the world and lets get hi"
~M~
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Tuesday, September 25
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I am having a down day. Have any of you seen Sweet November? I LOVED that movie. I figured I need a friend like Chaz. Someone I could just talk to. I found the perfect guy too. Ever since I moved here I had a feeling the guy in the office liked the same sex I do. Well... he does and he is funny! I know Josh probably thinks he's strange but thats because he doesn't like a lot of my friends. My chaz is sweet and funny and so cute. Not cute like I want his body cute but more along the "adorable cute" lines. I don't know. It's good that my suspitions have been confirmed, because if I keep going to talk to "My Chaz" Josh would most likeluy accuse me of wanting to screw him or already screwing him. So now if I find a gay guy as a friend it would be perfect. I don't know, I can't find any girl friends so why the hell not. Am I desperate? I am starting to think so. ANNIE WHERE ARE YOU!?!?!?!?!?!?! Annie is like the only real friend I have left and shes like a million miles away from me. Ok, time to boo-hoo.......................................................................ok, I'm done. Well tomorrow. well Friday cuz Josh is off for two days, I will go to the office and tell "My Chaz" he has been ordered to be my friend. So HA! How do ya like them apples? I am so messed up. HELP ME DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!
~M~
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6:34 PM
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Ok, so my tummy is full and I am really tired. I would take a nap but there is no one to watch the baby. My dogs are getting dumber by the second. I thought they were so smart at one time but now I realize I ws seriously mistaken. What to do, what to do? Hmmmmm ( she grunts with a questionable face ) I have no life!!!! All that pondering to come to a conclusion I have made several times in the past 5 minutes! Damn. I gues I will go clean. I am suposed to go shopping with mom but she hasn't felt good so I have the strangest felling I'll be stuck at home ALL NIGHT. Bye for now.
~M~
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2:31 PM
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Ya know what? Cartoons are a life saver! The only problem is I can't ever try to watch the news or a movie for like 5 hours. Were we the same way at such a young age? It wouldn't surprise me one bit. I just can't picture myself throwing a fit like my son did when I put on the news instead of disney this morning. Oh well. I'm all paranoid because I cleaned out Java lastnight (w/ bleach) and now I am all freaked out about there being left-over bleach in it. Oh well we'll find out sooner or later. Well everyone, I have managed to sink into debt once again. This time I know it will be temporary because I cut mom a few checks to have something to fall back on. Josh thinks I did it to save her. I paid off one of her credit cards too. But that was because I maxed it out. I owed her $200 so I overwrote it for 3 so now I can aske for some of it. See I am smart. I think. Well I have to go and figure out how the hell i'm gonna get out of this one. I will be back..... eventually.
~M~
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Monday, September 24
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I have written a lot today. I won't be long cuz the unisom is kickin. YAY BABY, YAY! Anyways. I live for messin with people. The other day Josh had to call in due to "Melissa's health complications" (yeah I know) So whenever he does that he boss is always "is she ok, do yuo need to leave" for like 2 weekds. I need coffee so I called up there (remember UNISOM) and the guy thats answered the phone was all like" Joshua yay hang on I'll run and get him rea; quick just hang on" I'm not dieing! But his voice was funny. he sounded pissed when he answered but then he was all like "hang I'll run and get him" HeeHee. HI ANNIE! Love ya lots. I am so glad Annie and I are friends. I just wisj sje lived closer. I hope I get to see her when she comes home. I think I shall ask if she'll be in my wedding. She is such a sweetheart. She is the only one who has read my bolggie blog. I need more friends like Annie. Shoot, I need more friends period. Hugs and kisses.
~M~
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I think you sould all know a little about the family...
Puter= HP Pavilion
Cammy= Camcorder
Java= The coffee pot
This is why I often wonder about myself
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Well Then! That was freaky! Rain came from NOWHERE! It just started pooring. And then this funny blue guy came out of the trees and said he was here for my mom. HAHA. My mom hates the blue pentium guys she says they scare her and I like to crck on her for it. Maybe I'll be one for halloween! Ok gettin goofy. Better go now
~M~
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So ANywayz! I just spent an hour or so with my mom. I love her. She always makes me feel better. She's MOM! It is NASTY outside. Really loud thunder. Ok mom, you can come back over now. I'l write later I don't want Puter to get fried.
~M~
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7:14 PM
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Ok. Here we are, in our 1/4 life crisis (yes, it really exsists). Most of my friends took off and went to get more edumacation at some bit college. Not me. Plus the way things are going right now it would be a waste. Anyways a dear friend once said "think of it as when you parents say 'if Bob jumped off the bridge would you?' if every kid in HS goes to college will you?" I know, I know, lame excuse. But hey, I tried. Here I am with NO friends. I often read other blogs and hear about what everyone is doing in school and feel like I am missing out. Annie, I am so happy for you and Brent. I know how you feel, I felt the same way 4 years ago and now we have plans to get married. Have you ever been SSSSOOOO tired that you laugh at the stupidest thing? Well, lastnight I rented Sweet November (I boo-hooed for like ever) and I went to download a song on the soundtrack by Enya. Well anyways Branden (my 16 month old) laughed for an hour at the name Enya. He laughed so hard that it made me laugh, and my mom laughed and the Josh cracked up when he saw the tape lastnight. Oh well you had to be there. I have been so happy to hear that all my frends are doing so well in school, but now none of them have time for me! I have such a problem making new friends. I anyone reads this and feels bad for me write me and I'll feel all betterer:) But for now I must go and clean my house. I love you all and good luck with whatever you choose.
~M~
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