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Monday, May 31
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Ahhhhh, Music, My Release...
So ok, I love music! LOL There is a new song out by Seether and Amy Lee from Evanescence. It's called Broken and I do believe it is my new favorite. I have to go to the dentist tomorrow!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! *sobs*
I hate the dentist. Probably b/c the only time I go it's b/c something is really wrong with me. *Doh* It's not like I don't brush.....I have like a family tree of bad teeth! I swear! I really hope my kids don't get it. I think BJ may be getting there though. *Damnit*.......
.......So we had subs from Publix *yummy* and went to the pool!!! *yay* We all got a lil sun. It was cool.
Oh, and why is it that I am fine *allergy wise* until I start to drink? Not that I was like getting drunk, but I had a Smirnoff Twisted, and my allergies start in with the sinus thing. Hello! You are not supposed to take Benadryl while drinking! So what did I do? I took it....lol....So if I start to make like little or no sense, that's why. If it's any consolation, I think I am becoming amino to the big B.
Oh well, I am so babbling now.....I guess I hould go for now. Luv ya, Luv ya's
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Saturday, May 29
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Starting To Feel Like Amanda!
.......really, I am!
Mom is all yelling at me today about how I don't feed my son right. WTF ever! Have you ever tried to feed a 4 year old boy? He will eat what he wants and when. I do not believe in starving your kids or forcing them to eat what you eat. They will eventually grow to like things. Then there is the potty training thing. Hello! Was she not there when we announced he was a little slow, well let's just say he marches to a different beat.
Then she starts in on me about how they will get brain damage sitting in my van that has no AC. Can I help that? I do not have 500 or 1000 bux to take the damn thing in and get it fixed. Sor-fuckin-ry! Today, we had a pretty good day with Branden. He went in the potty 5 times!!!!! And when we were at mom's he had a small pee in his pull up and then he unleashed the rest on the pot. That was VERY good. He was rewarded :) I swear, the woman never looks at the progress he makes, just that he isn't talking much better and that he is still in pull ups.
I'm sorry, but I got tired of making nice dinners and watching it get thrown (literaly* thrown at me when he didn't want it. I try and sneak things, like putting meat in his sauce with his pasta, but the he will see it and pull out all the noodles and only eat them. He lives on string cheese, and is there a big problem with that? I do not load him up on candy and sugary shit, b/c I know he is more likely to get diabetes b/c of me. Oh I don't know.....
Any suggestion?
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Wednesday, May 26
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*Sobbing Loudly*
Well, Alicia's birthday came and went. I haven't updated b/c I feel like if I write about it then it really did happen. But I can't ignore it forever now can I. I cannot believe it has been a year already!!!
It's like I blinked and she was sleeping all night, then babbling, then crawling, talking, etc......... I am creepin up on my 1 year no *Aunt Flow* aniversery or something. Yep, that's it. No more kids! I should probably be somewhat happy about this. But I think that's what makes watching Alicia grow up so fast is so painful. I know I will never do it again!
But that's what grandkids are for. I get to spoil them rotten and watch my kids get as pissed off at me as I get at my mom. LOL Oh I don't know. Well anyways. I guess I should go and color or something. Yeah yeah yeah..... I still color. Mom says it's theraputic! ROFLMAO!!! No It's b/c I am not 44 I am 23 in a 10 y/o state of mind.
I finaly realiz4ed why I never had a lot of friends as a kid. I was coloring in Branden's play house thingie, and I gave him a marker and told him to color a certain spot a certain color. Well, he starts to color and goes out of the line. So I told him to be careful and to stay in the lines. He's all like....ok, whatever. So he keeps going and ends up coloring a pink part green and I am all like no, gimme the marker! And it hit me. Not only do I treat him like my little bro rather than my son, but....this is why I played with the boys who didn't color. We played football and beat the living shit out of each other.
I am so not right!!!!
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Sunday, May 23
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.........Ok, I'm back...
Well, So yeah, tomorrow is Ali's big day. One whole year?!?!?!?! WOW!
Have any of you ever tried to teach someone a lesson and it blows up in you face? That's what happened to me yesterday. I thought Josh had called in sick, he didn't, so on that note, he slept all day why? So I packed up my little bag and went to help mommy move. I told him that I know for a fact I am going to get whatever the hell he has and no one is going to take time from their own days to help me. So why does the world have to come to a halt when he gets the sniffles? I guess something sank in, b/c this morning I woke up as bad as he was yesterday so he went to the store *with both kids* and bought me flowers, some cold/flu stuff and he ordered Alicia's cake.
I have not had a smokie for over 3 hours now. I am shocked! And proud, and nickin'! Big time. Lets see, what else is up? I am still in shock about Laura. But I think that is expected of almost everyone who ever knew she existed. So i guess this will be my second funeral. Ironically, the only other one I have gone to was related to ROTC also. Go figure.
!I HAVE NO SMOKIES!
I have been coloring for about a week now. Mom says it's theraputic. Sure.....LOL......But I have noticed that I tune the kids out easier when I am coloring. I guess I have been adicted to coloring ever since my uncle Fred used to buy me crayons and all like every week. that's all I ever did when I was little. That and go to the beach. But I guess when we grow up we find comfort in the things we liked as kids. Kinda like comfort food. But with me it's comfort colors! LOL.....
I really should get going.....Benadryl is starting to kick my ass. About time too, I ended up taking like 4 in 3 hours....
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Well, This has been a rough week...
As you all have probably heardon the news, there was a sailor missing. Well, she was a pretty good friend of mine back in High School. So, all week I have been talking to people I really haven't heard from in a long while. We have all caught up on life and shared our feelings and all that jazz. Randy put it best when he said *if they have a service here in town, it will just be a big ROTC reunion*.
Tomorrow is Alicia's 1st Birth Day!!! After Branden's cake episode, I got her cake for free! Plus she gets a free *smash cake* from Publix. It's a little round cake they give kids for their first birth day so they can *smash* it all over themselves.
More later.
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Sunday, May 16
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Where to begin???
Well, have you ever woken up and just known it was going to be an *off* day? That was yesterday. I got up , woke everyones else up and kinda felt that the day was off. Well, I keep checking to see where mom is. Not home. So needless to say I don't call her. We go to WallyWorld (WalMart) and let Branden (kinda) pick out his own present. He picks out this pop up cardboard playhouse that you color on. Nifty idea! But then I see a little bike with training wheels, he didn't want it until I told him we could take it to the park and he could ride it. Then he damn near threw the playhouse thing at me.
Well, then we are off to Publix for the cake. Get there and I tell them the name the order is under. They say they don't have anything. So I tell the lady that is said happy birthday Branden on it. So the other lady is all like *Ohh, I have one of those* and she brings it over for me to see. WRONG CAKE DIPSHIT! This cake said it, and was spelled right and my name was on the order, but the cake was white with blue lettering! I ordered a damn Dora The Explorer cake! SO I kinda half went off. The lady is all like I can fix it. 15 minutes.
So we walk around the store get a few things we needed and go back to the bakery where they are still working on it. SO more walking (and spending) for a while. Then, finaly! It's done. I didn't look at the price, but they upped the charge $3 b/c now it's a Nick JR cake! So I am now an hour late for the cake cutting. My mom was supposed to be here at 12ish for it and Amanda had been here for almost 2 hours.....ALONE! When I finaly get here, mom has left a message, she says she has left and will be back later. So I call her friends cell...
*I will be home sometime later, don't wait for me to cut the cake.* I thought that meant 4-5 like she said. We did the cake at 3ish. The whole time Branden was asking for his Mina! That bitch! Any rate. I open the cake box and the top layer is falling off. I called the bakery and went off on the asst. manager. He has a refund waiting for me.
Mom ends up coming home after 8 and Branden is in bed. I go over there and tell her he is in bed, she asks me why, whats wrong. I juust starred at her and said *IT'S PAST HIS BEDTIME! THAT'S WHY*! I could have strangled her right there on the spot! Any other day I would not care, but on his birthday!?!?!?!?!?!?! What's wrong with her?
There is sooooooooo, much more to say, but I cannot. I really cannot keep this up, I am going to have a damn stroke.
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All I have to say is.... WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE THESE DAYS?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
I am still soooooo pissed off that I can not tell you how horrid this day has been. How can my 4 year old son's birthday be horrid you ask? Well, tune in tomorrow, or the next day (whenever I cool down) to find out..........
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Saturday, May 15
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Well, Technically Branden's birthday isn't for another 11 hours or so. But OMG I cannot believe he is 4!!!!! I have been having the battle of the potty training in my house for like years now! I swear this child is destine to be in pull ups for eternity! But today after his routine accident, I turned off the TV and told him why...Well he was realy quick to go sit on the toilet and find this drop of pee in the deep dark recesses of his bladder. So, he got to watch his shows....I WIN!!!!!
Tomorrow we have Amanda, Tifferz, Mike, Mom, maybe Alexis (sweet)and naturally us.....We'll see how this goes. Josh couldn't get the day off, however! He did manage to get Darice to let him come in at 5 instead of noon or earlier. YAY! I WIN......AGAIN!!!! *evil laugh*
OMG! OMG! OMG!
Alicia cut a front top tooth!!!!!! Her left one. I saw it yesterday and was all like WOW...You aren't a freak after all! LOL She had a BAD very BAD day today. She cried like all day. Cried, ate, and slept. Which mean.........you guessed it GROWTH SPURT! Like I have the money for another shopping spree....C'mon Amanda! Cough up the old baby clothes! LOL.....
I am feeling a lil better today, finaly! My throat hasn't hurt all that much, but my sinuses are still completely screwed. I never had a big problem with allergies until this year! I can't believe it. But from what my girlie Dawnelle was telling me, there is certainly something in the air this year....no pun intended. She has it so bad her doctor actually had to perscribe her an inhaler! I already have one, but thats' insane!
Oh well, I need to try and get a lil rest before tomorrow! OMG, 4 years.......Some new links will be up as soon as I figure out how to get it to work....C~Ya's L8RZ
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Monday, May 10
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Alrighty Then...
I sign in to my blogger thingie and they have gone and changed it all... It's kind of like going to AOL.com, weird dude, totaly trippy.
So happy mother's day to any mom's who read this thing. I had a rough mommy's day. First I was sick, then my kids were freakin CRAZY!!! and my sissy was having a bad day too. So I take the kids to mom's and we hung there for a bit until we wanted to go to DQ. We get Branden a Blizzard and he doesn't eat it! WTF was he thinking!?!?!?! But Josh brought me some yummy food from work so it was all good.
Today I feel like crapola still but maybe a lil better than yesterday. I am completely drugged up on Benadryl so I get really tired now and then. That's when I either fight it or take advantage of it. Josh has two days off now so I may get some much needed rest :) Maybe......
Alicia:
Well, let's just say she is a LUNATIC!!! She was totaly fussy (bitchy, if you wanna be technical about it) for 3 days. Well today I am getting her dressed and I was tickling her, she put her head back and I see something.....ANOTHER TOOTH!!!! But finaly this one is on top. She snuck it in. This is how weird my kid is. She has 3 and 1/2 teeth on the bottom, all in front. Then on top she has 1 that has hardly broke the skin....NOT in front, the damn thing is on the side!!! WTF is that about?!?!?!?!?!
Branden:
Well, Branden is Branden. For about 3-4 days now he has acted like a crackhead! Mom and I said we were waiting for him to come off of his high. LOL Seriously! I don't know what has gotten into him! He won't sit still and he won't be quiet for more than 2 seconds. As soon as I start to talk he just amplifies himself. As if he weren't loud enough? So yeah, I have had a rough few days.
I do believe that is it for now.........I think :/ If I do happen to think of anything else worthy of blogging, I'll let ya'll know...PromisE.
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Friday, May 7
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???So how much of a brat do I sound like???
My mom has lived across the street from me for a year now. Before that, yeah I was in Orlando...but everytime I lived in Tampa she has been like right there. Well, her and Tom bought a house. Now she is going to move like 15 minutes away. She is all like *what are we going to do?* On that note I figured she and I would be spending a lot of time together until she moves. WRONG! Maybe I am being selfish, maybe a brat. Either way I am pissed off. I know my mother.
Once she moves away, I won't see her often at all. Yeah, I am on her way home from work now, but it's going to be *Oh honey i am tired, I'll come over tomorrow* a week later I may see her. And God-the-hell-forbid I go see her! Tom is already being an ass about me going to HER apartment when he is there!!! I don't know what the hell to do now. I NEVER get a break from life! For one day, I would like to stay in bed for the day and watch TV. By that I mean in my own bed with my own TV. It seems like everytime I wish for a day in bed I end up in the ICU. Doesn't count!
So yeah, I am a littl ehormonal right now. I asked mom to take me to the store to get some new pull ups for Branden (easy up suck ass!) and she's all like Tom hasn't been over in 3 days. Boo-fucking-hoo!!!!!! I don't see Josh for like 16 hours a day and when he gets home I am ready to drop. But you don't see me ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,more l8r
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Thursday, May 6
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The other day i sign into my blog and get an invite from blogger to join the new Google Mail! Like I need another email addy!!!! So of course I signed up.....:/
Alicia is cutting MORE teeth! It's like she was toothless for so long and out of nowhere she cuts all these damn teeth! Whatelse?.....ummmmm........... Oh yeah! So did I mention I am almost completely deaf in one ear? Yeah, that's what i get for sticking my damn finger in there to itch it. I guess if I hadn't had my nails done it wouldn't have been that bad! LOL Yeah, even I do REALLY stupid ish on a daily basis.
Branden had like 2 rough days. Well he probably didn't notice, and the roughness fell on me and Josh, but it was caused by him. Josh made a nice point yesterday. Dr. A put him on the sleeping meds thinking maybe he wasn't getting enough sleep or something along those lines was causing his hyperactive BS. Well, it's been 2 months of meds now and his attitude hasn't gotten much better. Yeah, he goes to bed and wakes up at MUCH better times, but I don't think that was it/ Granted I know how to deal with him now and he doesn't get as out of control as often these days. Oh well, such is life.......
!BRB BABY NAP TIME!
OK, all better. I miss doing that with Branden. Just seeing his eyes get puffy, knowing he is tired and being able to cuddle for a sec then plop him in his crib for an hour. These days, he gets tired and I try and take advantage of it by sitting with him and all I get is *No, mommy, shoo, my couch, go away!*. He thinks he is king shit! OMG! This is funny....kinda. My mom spoils the kids, (like any grandma would) well, yesterday i was letting Josh sleep in. Branden is pretty quiet in the AM. So he is on the couch getting all comfy, well he wraps himself up in a blanket and desides he wants his Bed-Bed (his pillow). *Mom? Bed-Bed, Please* so I'm all like ok go get it. *NO mom You get it NOW!* What the hell was this child thinking!!!???!!! SO of course I am all like *oh no you didn't....No Branden you want bed-bed you go get it.* *No mommy!!! I want my white bed-bed now! Got get my bed-bed!*. After that I did the ignor it thing. Even though I was about to burst out laughing, or scream at him. Either way he would have had some sort of saticfaction. Here's where it gets good.
I call mom to tell her. She laughs it off and tells me when she was watching him the other day he took a soda into her room, ok not abnormal...... He puts it on the dresser by the tv and gets on the bed. He is laying there with his arms behind his head all comfy and grown looking. He starts yelling for my mom *MINA MINA* so mom goes in the room to see what he wants. Branden looks at her and says *Mina, soda, please?* Seeing as how he asked her nicely she gave it to him. Well, now he thinks that he can lay there and have people wait on him hand and foot! He must have seen it on TV or something. No one in this house is THAT lazy!
I so did not want to wake up this morning! I swear people think that just because I am a stay home mom, I am on a vacation 24/7!!!! Hello! NO FREAKIN WAY DUDES!!!!! Let me inform all of you readers out there.....I wake up, before I can even start the coffee, I have to get food and drink for 2 other little demanding people. If I am lucky, I can get away with changing their diapers then doing the food thing. When this happens I get to make coffee!
After everyone eats, I may get a pee break, and that's only if Branden isn't on one toilet with Josh on the other, then I am SOL until someone gets done. By this time, Ali is screamin to get down and crawl around. Normally I am really not awake enough to hawk-eye the child. So, sometimes she is ok with being in her saucer next to BJ watching Dora (female satan) being somewhere where she can watch my every move. When I get my first quiet minutes, I either pee and check mail or just check mail. On a good day, I get to play a game of pool and drink a cup of coffee in silence for like 10 minutes.
That is just my first 30-60 minutes awake. Don't even ask about the rest of the day. My first real brake comes when Ali takes her afternoon nap (between 2 & 4) that is when BJ should be taking a nap but seeing as how he gave his naps up....he watches TV or plays quietly (shocker) until he gets up. After that all hell brakes loose until someon e goes to bed.
Tonight is the last Friends EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so gonna be watching it, So Amanda....from 8-11 I am so not on the phone! LOL Sorry sis. After Friends is ER....YAY, I wonder how much longer that will last? After ER is gone, I don't know what I will do onm Thur. nights!!!
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Monday, May 3
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Wondering aimlessly through this thing called life....
Ok, so anyrate, I have been like messed up for a week now. I am getting migraines on a nightly basis, wow, such fun that is! Branden is getting so big! I cannot believe he will be 4 this month! OMG. I swear it feels like yesterday that the nurses at St. Mary's put him on my tummy and said here's your son. Next year he will be in elementry school! And Alicia is going to be 1!! I am so depressed. No one told me you will get bumbed out every year as your kids get older.
I have been having a somewhat good day! The kids have been relatively quiet so I have been in my room organizing the dresser and putting aay laundry. Next I have to tackle the kids' room.....AAAHHHH!!! Alicia is cutting her 4th tooth and man is she bitchy about it. Oh yeah! I have to rant!
So Josh's mom calls us like 2 months ago reminds us of his dad's hip replacement. She says she would like to meet her grandaughter before she turns one. Well, when she failed to use her name is when I was all like HELL NO! For those of you lacking psych knowledge, when people refer to others in the family as *my son, my grandchild, my .....* you get it, that is their little way of controling the situation. They think as l;ong as the do not voice the fact that the person does not *belong* to them, then in their mind they do. Anyrate. She neevr calls back until Jim is going in for his operation. She tells Josh to call him and wish him good lick or something like it. Josh was all like NO.
So I am so fed up with them. When she realizes that Alicia and Branden have names, then maybe I will allow her a glance. But the bitch put me in preterm labor by pushing me down when I was pregnant! I really don't want to subject Alicia to that type of psychosis. i feel bad enough that BJ had to go thru it.......
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