I Often Wonder About Myself...
Tuesday, November 13
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When Branden was an infant, he was the perfect sleeper. No 3am feedings or screems in the middle of the night. In fact the first night we brought him home he slept for 6 hours straight! When I woke up and the sun was out, I ran to the basenett to make sure he was alive! I know, it sounds morbid but it's true. I think it was mostly because we were night owls. Josh was at school till 10pm and we would spend a lot of time together when he got home. I remember Branden would have his last bottle around 1130 and then i would give him an extra 2 oz right before I went to bed. Then he wouldn't wake up until 8-9! I thought I would be awake all night *just like evryone said I would* but it was great.
I'm just scared that my next baby won't be as cooperative. But I have lost more sleep in the past week than I have since Branden had his surgery when he was 6 weeks old. He has been up all day and won't nap, then I put him down at night and he stays awake for 3 hours playing in his crib, the he sleeps for like 3 hours and wakes up again!!! I am so confused! So this is partly why at 1:21am I am awake and on the net instead of nice and comfy in my nice warm bed! I am so tired and am in so much pain... But ya know what? It's all worth it. God gave me this baby boy to take care of and raise to the best of my ablilties, and that is exactly what I am going to continue doing. I have hit some low points but I always seem to bounce back. And I always will. I love this kid with all I have, and I always will. But for now I am going to go try to get him to sleep and get myself some rest. I love you all and give youselves kisses for me and the baby.
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